Say a prayer and let the good times roll;

I know I'm not the only one to blog about this. It seems to be all the rage right now.

Happiness:

state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy

Now doesn't that sound about right? Especially considering that I can't sleep, can't eat, I really can't read now, words don't make sense, I can't form proper sentences, I can't focus, I can't stop smiling, I can't even stand. In other words, I can't function. And I'm not the only one. My brain doesn't shut up at night and the butterflies whisper to me all night and day. That's cheesy, I know. But it's true. And along with being happy I'm completely terrified.

It's really so soon after everything. And I feel like I should care...but I don't. I don't care one bit. I was scared of what people will think. People back home, mostly. Like think that I'm fickle. But then I talked to Randee. Dear Randee who knows exactly what to say. She told me not to care what anyone thinks. She reminded me that the unknown is most of the adventure. Then she said the most perfect thing she could possibly ever say...

"I really feel that this is a very good thing. Like my gut feels good. Honest. To be completely honest, with billy my gut was always a little unsettled. Not because he's a bad guy or anything like that, I promise! Just something didn't quite fit. Whatever is happening now is good. Whether it turns out to be a big deal or not, i believe this is a good thing for you to do. He's fun, he's sweet, he notices. Whether he's here to give you the attention you need and show you where your standard needs to be or whether he's there for a greater purpose, he's there for a good reason."

Well folks, I do believe my best friend is a genius. I'm ready to be myself. I'm not changing for a guy again. This is me. I'm gonna jump off the ledge and fly head first into whatever this is. Just go for it.

Don't know much about your life.

Don't know much about your world,

but Don't want to be alone tonight,

On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past,

andI don't have a future figured out.

And maybe this is going too fast.

And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,

What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below

Or hand to hold,

or hell to pay,

What do you say,

What do you say?

So I'm taking that chance. I'll Defy Gravity. :)

"Never let the odds keep you from doing what you know in your heart you were meant to do." -H. Jackson Brown, Jr.